Bit of Fiction: Tension [1200 word limit]


The Cupboard

She huddled in the fetal position in the pitch darkness of the tall and narrow cupboard next to the built-in refrigerator and its lulling hum. The space was cramped for her near 6’ lanky frame. There were awkwardly stowed limbs everywhere, like a contortionist practicing a new act but without the elegance. It was at least 10 degrees warmer in the cupboard and the musty stale air of forgotten dry goods impaled her nostrils. A blinding light seeped in from underneath the door making her eyes water when her gaze had outstayed their welcome. She tightly clasped her hands on either side of her knees wrapping her arms around her legs, uncomfortably forced against her chest. ‘Boobs. Boobs would make this more tolerable,’ she considered. ‘Boobs,’ she repeated, ‘it would at least offer some cushioning’ her mind distracted by her current physically distressing position.

Sweat was beading down her forehead committing hara-kiri on the top of her knees. If she was lucky, the bead of sweat would run its course down over her shin bone. But the current path of choice was running all the way down her inner thighs and straight towards her crotch. ‘Just lovely! If someone finds my body they will no doubt deduce that I inevitably wet myself in my last moments,’ she sulked in the thought. And for a moment, a calmness flirted with her. For a moment, there was peace. For a moment there were even an absent of her current condition.

Then quite suddenly the sound of the squeaky doorknob interrupted her moment and swiftly replaced calm with panic. The door swung open with a little too much force and crashed into the wall with a thunderous bang. The sudden break in silence startled Audrey to let out a small muffled yelp. Quickly followed by both hands covering her mouth as if the gesture can promptly retrieve the sound waves which so freely passed through her lips. The thick rubber soles of a workman’s boots grazing insidiously against old wooden floors caused her anxiety to escalate with every step.

“C’mon please, please, please” she whispered through clenched teeth. Each step seem to have vibrated the floor joist beneath her jabbing her protruding butt bone just enough to make her wince. Adding to her physical discomfort. Adding to her growing angst of what’s about to come.

‘Oh wonderful, now I have to go to the loo?’ she thought to herself with certain indignity. The heavy footsteps ensued with a certain clumsiness. As the wearer of the boots came closer in proximity the steps served to announce its amplified insidious intent. The only barrier separating Audrey and the wearer of the boots was a paper thin plywood cupboard door. She slammed her eyes shut and turned her face from the light to listen. To pray. To beg whoever or whatever was listening. An ardent student of atheism, who was she praying to? What was she praying to? Begging pardon with? Asking to be spared? God? The Universe? Leprechauns? Rainbow Unicorns? Audrey could not resolve to believe in the intangible but at the first sign of impending doom the archaic notion of ‘being a slave to outdated notions of a commoner’ came back to possess her. ‘pffft, famous last words – this is karma for you Hughs’ she thought regrettably.

Audrey listened with such intensity that her racing heart and shallow breath dominated the conversation. She squeezed her eyes even tighter in an attempt to muster additional concentration, as if magically her hearing would broaden its reach. But she heard nothing. Not one sound. Not even the sound of the curtains fluttering ever so delicately in the warm summer breeze. Silence fell because there was nothing to hear. The footsteps had halted. As abruptly as it started it ceased with equal unapologetic bluntness. Her scrawny frame instinctively began to slightly rock back and forth as dismay settles into her bones. ‘Why wasn’t there anymore footsteps? It was not possible to reach the cupboard doors in so few steps. Where the bloody hell are the boots?’ She frantically reasoned with herself in an attempt to employ logic over borderline hysteria ‘Open your eyes Audrey Grace! Open – your – eyes – you – little – coward!’ she berated herself. She let out a soft exhale and obscenely slow peeled her left eye open, then her right. Squinting at the terrible white light, her irises rebelled adamantly making her light green eyes water in an instant. She did her best to clear them, tilting her head and alternating turns rubbing on each perspective shoulder; leaving streaks of tears, mascara, and foundation on her pale yellow shirt. ‘Bloody freaking hell, that’s not going to come out in the wash’ she irritatedly assessed. She blinked feverishly and as the white blur came into focus, she desperately cocked her head in the most unnatural way in hopes to catch a glimpse of the world beyond. Anything. A crumb. A shadow. A sign. Any sign. Any gesture of where the wearer of the boots may have taken up residency.

A shuffling could be heard. Then a step. Then another. Before Audrey could consider the situation her fight or flight instincts kicked in full force and she sprang out of the cupboard with a crazed gleam in her eyes. The wearer of the boots leaped across in no more than three steps triumphantly yelling, “GOTCHA!” His arms wrapped around Audrey so keenly that he could touch both sides of himself. He hoisted her off the floor with her legs flailing and kicking like a fish desperate to find its way back to water.

Audrey screamed loudly in despair and every inch of her body convulsed as if she was having a fit. She squirmed, twisted, and kicked to break free but it was a futile attempt. Her initial fight had relinquished itself to being defeated. Audrey’s entire body fell limp in his arms. A broad cheesy smile flashing his perfect pearly whites encompassed his face. Audrey’s brother 5 years her junior had finally surpassed her in height, strength, cunning, and evidently cockiness. He gave her a few good shakes and Audrey’s arms lifelessly flopped up and down with each shake as if she was a string puppet.

“Say it!” he demanded, “Say IT Audrey!”

With an exaggerated sigh and her head drooping lifelessly she mouthed the words of defeat.

“Oh c’mon! I can’t hear anything! Fair is fair Audrey – say IT!”

With another exaggerated sigh she duly recited the oath of losers. An oath which she created when they were children. An oath that he had recited almost exclusively until now. An oath of complete surrender. An oath that now she had to attest, out loud, browbeaten. Her reign over him is officially over.

“You’re the best. I’m the worst. You’re kung-fu is the greatest” Audrey uttered void of spirit.

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Bit of Fiction: Setting [1200 word limit]

2015 8-3

The Forty Year Mourn

It wasn’t always so cold and devoid of life here, the brownstone at 80-23 Surrey Place. My childhood was a comfortable one, never in need of any of the physical essentials like food, or clothing, or a roof over my head. The childhood home was a humble brownstone, humble by the standards of it’s neighboring homes towering over our little shack.

The neighborhood was serene, idyllic, perhaps even other worldly. The streets in the community were not the standard New York fair seen in photos or the movies, where each home is a carbon copy reproduction of the other, aligned perfectly with military precision, rows and rows of clones. Like a brigade of West Point Cadets in their dark blue cutaway coat with scarlet facings, brass buttons, white waistcoat and tight pantaloons on the parade field marching as one.

No – the streets I grew up on added a romantic sentiment to the phrase ‘going home.’ As I applied pressure to the jarring chime on the Q46, the mere glance of the community sneaks a smile on to my naturally pouty face. Getting off the bus I always instinctively stopped to steal a moment and admire the odd sprout of heavy vegetation surrounded by the four major fairways of Queens. It’s like Grandmother holding out a soft, warm blanket straight from the dryer, with a faint smell of the dryer sheet still intertwined with the fabric on the grayest, coldest, wettest, most miserable of days; waiting and beckoning for me at the front door.

The 503 acre community was bursting with large magnificent enormous oak, maple, elm, and chestnut trees. The tree trunks were enormous, bold, and their bark formed patterns like scales on a dragon, gallantly standing guard over the community. I remember Mother used to grumble about our after dinner walks because the thick, twisted, knobby tree roots would protrude through the sidewalk just enough to be a tripping hazard. The roots defiantly projected themselves above ground, through newly poured sidewalks, like squatters refusing to leave. The branches were often the size of treelings in nurseries, extending out with purpose and fierceness, like arms to stave off the woes of the day. Some of the more prominent trees were on the outer perimeter of the community serving as a moat abruptly separating an inner peace from the hectic pace of big city life. I use to take such delight walking from the Q-46 bus stop making my way up Surrey Place. It was like passing through a magical threshold leaving behind the rumbling sound and smells of the diesel engine busses, the chaos of the bumper to bumper traffic, and the boisterous pedestrians. Beyond the tree line, the world instantly hushed like stepping into a soundproof room.

I fail to recall the precise moment when everything changed. It seemed like one morning I woke up and the tranquility and the custodial presence simply abandoned its post. The houses, the trees, even the rebellious roots remained but something intangible in the air had gone amiss.

Mother use to take my brother and I out to dine once a week. It matter not that she worked 10 hour days, we always managed one meal together. If it was a particularly harrowing week, she would bring take out for us to enjoy, together in the dining room. We used to frequent the parks, take long walks, and go to shopping malls to have an Orange Julius and soft twisty ice cream. But as time passed, the gravity of being a widow at the tender age of 42 with two young school age children feasted on her like maggots on rotten flesh. She condemned herself to wearing black for an entire year after Father’s unexpected death. A traditional Chinese shrine was created atop of our formal dining room armoire with a large 11×14 black and white photo of Father staring down as we passed through, from the living room into the kitchen. His eyes haunted me. Relentlessly staring. Staring right through me, following me from one side of the room to the other, infesting me with such a fear of death and ghosts that I eventually was simply too petrified to go through the dining room and detour myself to take the long way down the main hall from the front door instead.  A heavy black clay bowl was placed in front of Father’s eerie image and every day for a year Mother burned three sticks of incense at once and placed it in the bowl. The bowl would catch the ashes containing it from scattering. Once a month she would make a special trip to Chinatown to purchase the special type of incense for tribute to ancestors. The fragrance imprisoned the entire first floor in a subtle smell of bitterness. It was an odd combination of cool and sour and for an entire year, it was as if I had been involuntarily committed to live in a Buddhist monastery.

The woman who scandalously married a recently divorced man twenty years her senior was once spirited, robust, brimming with life. But as the days went on, Mother incrementally withdrew herself from the world. She cocooned herself in murder mysteries, Carol Burnett, and work. Her new lifestyle left very little room for anyone or anything. Mother obsessed over work and  volunteered to work, no matter if it was a Saturday, a Sunday, or both. I can recall weeks during the school year where I only saw her in passing as she came home from work at 8:30 p.m. and retreated to her bedroom straight away, locking the door behind her. We became strangers cohabitating under one roof.

Father’s untimely demise essentially made me one step above an orphan. Mother and I never could overcome her incessant mourning and self imposed solitary confinement. It has been years since we have last spoke. Her only two grandchildren are in universities having no memory of their grandmother. Ironic that I am who was summoned to be the executor of her will.

For a moment I stood still to inspect the brick exterior noticing a few bricks has been haphazardly patched with window caulking instead of cement. The front yard was farcely overgrown and neglected but not abandoned entirely. The front two steps had been outfitted with a makeshift ramp of thin plywood which yielded ever so slightly to my weight. I gingerly made my way to the front door and softly grasp the brass round door knob, slightly warm from the beating sun. I glanced down casually procrastinating the task at hand when I noticed a new doormat. It was a Christmas themed in gaudy array of standard holiday colors of dull green, awkward red, and dingy gold. There was an animal of sorts which I can only assume was meant to be a reindeer. It read “WELCOME” in all capital letters at the top then in slightly smaller font, “but especially if you are Santa.”  A crooked smile sneaked onto my face as the mat was obviously a Job Lot after holiday clearance item. I welcomed the distraction and with an exaggerated sigh I turned the door knob to what was once home.

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Bit of Fiction: Real or Memorex?

2015 7-27 Short HK

Fleeting Memories

Time, the enemy of many things has begun to erode what little memory I have left of my childhood home. My family and I immigrated to the U.S. when I was 7 and I regrettably have not been able to return to Hong Kong, U.K. since. My memories of life on the lovely bustling little island have now begun to go missing in large portions, like one of those old movie reels where the acetate has started to erase the contents from existence.

One of my strongest memory was accompanying Mother everyday down the hill to the market for food. It was an open market by the docks. I always knew when we were close because the smell of the ocean mixed in with all the live seafood greets my nostrils long before my eyes can see the rolls of stalls. When we entered the cluster of stalls, vendors projected their voices advertising wares from the left, from the right, the sound of male voices covered the air in a loud hum. One louder than the other in hopes to capture shoppers’ attention like a moth to a flame. Combine the voices with the clucking of chickens and ducks, the swishing of fish still swimming, and the snapping of the live crabs and lobsters claws, it was almost a sensory overload at times. I remember one time specifically that Mother had purchased a particularly large fish for dinner. It was still swimming in its red plastic tub of salt water. We brought it home and Mother began to prepare it when she suddenly let out a rather undignified squeak. I ran into the kitchen to see the commotion and saw the fish fillet in half. Yet the white sack which I can only assume was the heart was still rising and falling as if it was still whole. Mother was terrified but I found it oddly curious and poked the white sack which made her let out a second squeamish noise followed by “how can you touch that?” I shrugged my shoulders and leisurely strolled out of the kitchen.

To this day, I still remember that fish laying on the wooden cutting board, partly dissected but refusing to die. Those fish eyes staring while it’s little heart drew its last ditch effort of living. Of course perhaps properly butchering the fish would have prevented such an jarring image but then that wonderful day of shopping would have been amongst one of many destined to be forgotten.

2015 7-27 Short US

Fleeting Memories Redubbed

Time, the enemy of many things has begun to erode what little memory I have left of my childhood home. My family and I immigrated to Flushing, New York when I was 7 and I have yet returned to visit. My memories of life in Flushing, New York have begun to go missing in large portions, like one of those old movie reels where acetate has begun to erase it from existence.

One of my strongest memories of life in Flushing was the first time I accompanied Grandmother to the supermarket for food. Every Wednesday she would walk down Kissena Blvd to Waldbaum’s because Wednesday was double coupon day! With the little foldable wheeled grocery cart in hand we would venture to the large grocery chain taking small delights in the displays as we passed shop windows. The entrance to Waldbaum’s was two one-way automatic doors triggered by stepping on the thick black rubber matting, sometimes with bits of produce still stuck in the deep groves. Immediately upon entering, my ears were overwhelmed by the loud shrilling hum of the dusty overhead vent. Pouring down a veil of bitter cold air or subjecting its patrons with a wrath of sudden agonizing heat – depending on the time of year. There was always a faint fragrance of pine sol which illuminated the store. It was strange to go to a store to purchase food but the smell and sounds gave more of a hospital vibe, unwelcoming and full of dead things in packages. Everything was refrigerated and shrinkwrapped; the chicken, the beef, the seafood, all tidy in their own little designated spaces in the open cooling units complete with a set price. There were to be no haggling or choosing which fish looked the freshest. It was all uniformly controlled & priced for efficiency. It was profoundly odd to identify the fish not by its head or tail but by the baby blue styrofoam tray tightly shrinkwrapped for ‘freshness’ with a ‘sell-by date’ stamped on its label. The fillet itself was neatly packaged in perfectly surgical precisioned portions and the almighty shrinkwrap assured that no remnant of it ever being fishy in the ocean escaped its grasp.

To this day, I still remember how initially unsettling it was to go food shopping inside of a climate controlled building where almost everything were in tidy shrinkwrapped packages. Over the years the details begin to blur but certain moments such as this are ingrained with such force that it refuses to be one of many destined to be forgotten.

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